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Disabled Dreamer

Author: Nicole Kinzel

  • Golden Autumn Poem

    Fall is my favorite season. If you were to ask a hundred people what they like about fall, they might say a lot of the same things. The warm soft comfort of a sweater. The delicious taste of spice and brown sugar dancing on the tongue as you indulge in the flavors of the season.…

  • Funny Bone Poem

    I know that everyone has a funny bone. A reaction to a sudden stimulus that does not feel like expected. It makes some people laugh and others cry. Some people interpret it as entertainment and others a kind of pain that does not really hurt. Often taking the breath away no matter which one. Be…

  • Headache Poem

    Rain rain Go away. Acting like a thunderstorm in my brain. A messenger of chaos. And a herald of pain. Never giving me a moment to play. *** Anyone have an umbrella? Since it is raining and pouring. Tears falling after the thunder. But my heart is definitely not snoring. The water keeps coming long…

  • Party Poem

    I like attending fun parties but I love hosting them more. Considering what everyone enjoys from food to activities. Decorating for the occasion until the house looks like a store advertisement featuring the event theme. I enjoy so much seeing people happy. Making memories with those I know. There would only be one occasion that…

  • Nurture Nightmare Poem

    Of course I have experience with an unpredictable father. Or perhaps the worst kind of predictable. But I can conceive an idea of a worse nightmare. One that haunts in an entirely different way. A situation that I’m not sure I could handle. But maybe a different form of one I already do. *** I…

  • Traits Poem

    I got body image issues from one. Early control that had long lasting impact. Emulated behavior that placed looks above golden happiness. Worry of judgment that became my own. At an early age looking sadly at the thickness of my arms. Trying to do what was portrayed as right and realizing it was unobtainable. ***…

  • I Get It Now Poem

    I understand why people take on difficult struggles. Challenges that are sure to bring frustration. That do not feel fair. A chance of victory but very small. Against those that do not have your best interests in mind. Though they should. *** Everything was stacked against me. Loopholes I did not know used. No care…

  • Preach Poem

    They accuse me of preaching. An unwanted message. Something that they had heard before. It did not end well for them. It never does. A raw nerve brushed against. *** I do not mean to preach. I never do. I simply share parts of myself without judgment. Yes I have ideas I aspire to follow…

  • Patience Poem

    I have been commended on my patience. A medal I sometimes display on my chest broadly. Other times hidden in my sock drawer out of my own line of sight. It always exists, I just do not always consider it the same. A shift of behavior that surprises many. Seemingly vibrant contradiction. *** That vibrancy…

  • Corner Of My Eye Poem

    I see it there. Hanging just out of where it thinks I cannot see. A dark vision without form. Would you believe me if I told you? Or would you laugh like some of the others have. Dismissed as another made up story for attention. *** I know that it means me harm. To shred…