Author: Nicole Kinzel

  • The Storm Poem

    It comes very quickly. I know you can feel it in your skin. The way it makes the hair stand on end. And makes you feel thin. That lightning is just a precursor to what will follow. Striking everything around without mercy. *** Look up. Dark clouds gather. Darker than you have ever seen before.…

  • Happy Poem

    Thank God I was born happy. Almost a constant smile on my face from birth. Never cried after birth. A source of positivity that came from myself. Persisting even after moments of pain. It saved my life. *** I was born like a flower cut at the stem. Expected to die off after a very…

  • The Hunted Poem

    Why are you one of the hunted? I know you tire of the chase. You have been here before. Know these dark halls. They are both your safety and prison. Hoping to befriend them before your enemy does. *** Do you not know how they attack? I know you have felt their teeth before. The…

  • Golden Streets Poem

    There are times I imagine those golden ways. Glittering in the beauty of all I could ever want. The memories made must shine just as brightly. Lit by a sun that never sets. Light that drives out all that never shone. Oh how safe I would be there. *** I have never been there. My…

  • I knew it Poem

    I knew you would become me. The one that overcame everything put against. Tried and tested like one put on trial. Becoming everything I needed to succeed. My own best friend and strongest person I know. Only God and I know everything you felt to get there. *** I knew you were my future. I…

  • Counting Days Poem

    Day one: shock Just let me sleep. Does not matter what is going on around me. The pain does not exist. Only tiredness remains. I will handle everything else later. *** Day two: momentum I feel the pain now. Irritation from all the little things. The taste of blood in my mouth a constant reminder.…

  • How Did I Poem

    Part of me simply does not understand. I could list every step I took. Logic followed like the flow of a river. Reasoning explained and justified to you and myself. But that river feels like it runs apart from me. A story about a dream or character. *** How did I get here? I understand…

  • Reset Poem

    The sun filters in through the blinds. It should be a beautiful day. I wish I could feel it. The sun is lovely on my skin but not what I need right now. The day might be right, But I am not. *** What I need is a reset. I cannot match the pace of…

  • Surgery Update

    I made it through surgery without significant complications. That being said, I am in very significant pain. The articles I read online, saying that the surgery does not hurt a lot are liars. I absolutely do not recommend getting a double mastectomy unless you have no better options. I cannot move my arms and the…

  • Surgery Time

    Posting early today since I will be undergoing an operation. As some long time followers know, I have extensive history with breast tumors. I have had four removed previously: two removed under general anesthesia and two under local. They are chronic benign tumors caused by estrogen sensitivity. That means they could happen until menopause. They…