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Disabled Dreamer

Category: Writing

  • Book of Poetry is in Progress For Publishing!

    The final lap for publishing my first book of poetry is here! I just have to handle the final illustrations and cover art. The manuscript is fully done. A collection of some of my best work over the last year edited, improved and structured for better clarity. Illustration is expensive so I have started a…

  • Publishing

    Hello everyone, I just wanted to announce that I have begun the process of looking for a publisher. It is not the long form project I expected it would be, but instead poetry! I will be working on finalizing all the poems I have made during the past year. Cleaned up, checked for grammar and…

  • Laughter Poem

    A party of absurdity. Every guest a clown to the other. Your laughter makes me laugh. Until I can no longer breathe. Tears streaming down my face. Absurdity in reaction to the absurd. *** Does not matter if the absurdity is made from the good or bad. The reaction is always the same. Shock that…

  • Letter To My Dad

    To the object of my pain and loathing. You wonder why I can be so cold to you. The reason why is because I remember. I remember because you never give me time to heal. I am surrounded by signs of you not caring about me or those I love. I want to return back…

  • Not My Problem Poem

    She wishes he left a long time ago. But it feels impossible. Too expensive to survive alone even if already alone physically. Caregiver already a full time job. Tied to him by her purse strings and nothing more. Why is it my problem? *** The daughter wishes that he left. Spared from years of yelling…

  • Party Poem

    I like attending fun parties but I love hosting them more. Considering what everyone enjoys from food to activities. Decorating for the occasion until the house looks like a store advertisement featuring the event theme. I enjoy so much seeing people happy. Making memories with those I know. There would only be one occasion that…

  • Nurture Nightmare Poem

    Of course I have experience with an unpredictable father. Or perhaps the worst kind of predictable. But I can conceive an idea of a worse nightmare. One that haunts in an entirely different way. A situation that I’m not sure I could handle. But maybe a different form of one I already do. *** I…

  • Traits Poem

    I got body image issues from one. Early control that had long lasting impact. Emulated behavior that placed looks above golden happiness. Worry of judgment that became my own. At an early age looking sadly at the thickness of my arms. Trying to do what was portrayed as right and realizing it was unobtainable. ***…

  • Patience Poem

    I have been commended on my patience. A medal I sometimes display on my chest broadly. Other times hidden in my sock drawer out of my own line of sight. It always exists, I just do not always consider it the same. A shift of behavior that surprises many. Seemingly vibrant contradiction. *** That vibrancy…

  • The Mask Poem

    I want to rip it off. Does not matter if it has become your face by now. The blood can fly. Does not matter if it is yours or mine. As long as it is no longer a part of you. Destroyed beyond use. *** I was so confused when I realized that you wore…