Sometimes I dream of an endless night. Catastrophic. Immutable. The end of the world as we know. As I know. Sun and gentle warmth forever smothered under black. The edge of all reality to my mind and sanity. But even then, all is not lost. Of course everything is ended but a new system emerges.…

Scenic vistas painted on a hospital walls. Cartoon, realistic, or modern, it does not matter. They always look the same to me. Meant to distract the eye and calm. No lasting substance beyond what you might find on your own on google images. Bland enough to make your mind as sick as the body in…

Words are a fickle thing. Everyone can think the same thing when being told a sentence. Or wildly different experiences that do not overlap at all. For example, being told that a Christmas tree is red could have two different definition for people. The line between a tree decorated with the color red and a…

Everything is alright. You can pry it from my cold dead hands. Pull it from me as easy as a snake from a hole. I will cling to it as long as my strength lasts. I have worked hard to get here. Nothing will take it away from me before the inevitable time. *** Of…

Doctor, please, do you have anything for the pain? I’m not really asking for a perfect cure. Just make it a little more tolerable. Just so I might sleep easily with myself. Think with a clear unclouded head. Unburdened. *** The doctor answers my please with those little round pills. Always a month’s supply at…

Blessed are those that help. Act as a reliable last resort. People that are problem solvers instead of creators. Having your back the entire time. And would never turn you away. A lifeline in a flood. *** Blessed are those that are not focused on receiving. Insisting on getting the bare minimum in return. Seeing…

It is a kindness when it is finally over. No matter how good or bad. The end of a chapter. An age come to a close. Filled with rest and tangible relief. The kind even your foundation can sense. *** It is a kindness because it was a promise to myself. Whispered under the quiet…

What is the right solution? Well, I will just say that I am glad that humans do not operate on math. The entire human population would not survive for long. While facts always lead to one conclusion, the rest of the world is not so lucky. Opinions are an entirely different creature. Thus, my right…

Simply amazing what can be recovered. Brought back to life like nothing ever happened. A miracle you never knew was possible and was never expected. The best possible outcome made manifest. A beautiful sight to behold. Praiseworthy. *** People are sometimes like that too. A relationship brought back from the brink. A sudden shift in…

Sometimes I have had enough. A feeling that a vacation could not even fix. A stiffness that the hottest flame could never soothe. A pain that I can no longer carry. Nerves frayed red raw. Too sensitive to brush against the slightest touch. *** I beg to be tied to balloons in that moment. Carried…