I know I have been absent for a VERY long time. It was probably a little over half a year ago that I stopped regularly posting, and for that, I owe an explanation.

I have been experiencing increasingly severe symptoms in multiple body systems. Headache, abdominal pain, blood pressure, insomnia, and more. And the most infuriating part was all tests were coming back normal. After seeing multiple doctors and specialists (and er visits) I finally have an answer and effective treatment. What I have is severe dysautonomia and after getting put on beta blockers and an antiacid, I am doing much better. Now I am just focused on getting back into a productive routine. Though knowing me that might not happen immediately. Being in physical pain for a year takes a real toll.

I stopped regularly posting because I had nothing left to give. All of my energy went into survival and persistence. My system was fried and there was nothing I could do. Though not a week went by where I didn’t feel guilty for not posting. What can I say? I enjoy bringing entertainment to others and I lost that in a way when I was forced to close up.

While I cannot promise that I will return to regular posting immediately, I wanted to give anyone that might read this an update. This remains a little daily ritual that is special to me.

~Nicole