Posting early today since I will be undergoing an operation. As some long time followers know, I have extensive history with breast tumors. I have had four removed previously: two removed under general anesthesia and two under local. They are chronic benign tumors caused by estrogen sensitivity. That means they could happen until menopause. They are not cancer but show up often and create a massive amount of internal pressure. They cause a lot of pain. Once they get painful I cannot sleep on my side without pain or even inhale properly.

Worst still. Anesthesia is risky for my physical disability. It can seriously restrict my breathing.

With all this in mind, i have made the decision to end the surgery cycle completely by getting a double mastectomy. It is the only way to guarantee my pain having a permanent end.

I am super conflicted and nervous. I do not really want to do this but have no better option. I just pray I made the right decision and do not regret it in the end.

May God watch over me while I cannot.