Where did the feeling go?

I swear I just had it.

Set in down the moment I was not using it.

Left to wait on some dusty shelf.

But now that I truly need it, it is stuck in a jail I do not know the location of.

Waiting patiently like a puppy at the pound for me to return.

***

Maybe I actually used it all up.

A limited supply I never knew the value of.

Wasted on trivial tasks before the true task.

A drug I did not know I needed until I saw the bottom of the pill bottle.

Left to crash all on my own.

A complete free fall.

***

I want to feel it.

That energy that drives me on.

Motivation and reward all in one.

Gone from my mind like a transient thought.

Left somewhere between now and yesterday.

Missing from the space between my ears.

***

Please tell me where I left that misplaced feeling.

Give me a refill of what I need.

For my mind is full of the empty and empty of the full.

Plug the dam and fill the road.

For I will go absolutely nowhere at this rate.

It never matters how much I honk my horn since the white noise is still there.