As soon as I saw that familiar blue screen I knew I was in trouble.

It would not be a simple fix for it never was.

But maybe it was a one time error.

Maybe I could continue as I was.

I was already so stressed.

Just not a good time but it never was.

***

It is not long before a new loop begins and that blue screen shows back up.

Oh God, what is broken?

Forced to do research I do not want to do.

Error codes copied and pasted.

Solutions copied and pasted back like a bizarre dance.

Oh God, what is broken?

***

I run every test I can.

Praying it will solve everything and free me from the loop.

Racing against the clock before the next loop starts again.

Before that abominable blue screen shows itself again.

Trying to solve it until I can recite trouble shooting steps from memory.

Praying it will solve everything and free me from the loop.

***

It ends as quickly as it began.

With nervousness and a slight mistrust.

Knowing that it is over for now.

Sometimes not knowing how or why.

Knowing that I might have to face it again.

With nervousness and slight mistrust.