Not to read for men sensitive about women’s issues.

Pre menstrual dysphoric disorder or PMDD, was not an issue I knew much about until I was told I had it by a psychiatrist. I’ve always had a really bad menstrual cycle but they suddenly started getting a lot worse and not in a way you’d expect. I started getting strange symptoms before even starting to bleed. My depression would worsen into full nihilism. Mental I could not function. Nothing felt interesting. Motivation dropped into rock bottom and I’d find myself staring blankly at the computer monitor because I didn’t want to do anything at all. I also got nauseous and diarrhea off and on. Sometimes I would feel unusually cold as well. Fatigue was a constant friend. Overall it’s hellish.

Thankfully the symptoms disappear shortly when I start bleeding. Not that it’s much comfort until a few days later. Like I mentioned, my cycle is really bad. I get pain so bad that I feel like I’ve been stabbed in the abdomen. Coming from someone who has a high pain tolerance, you know it’s bad. I have had to take old hydrocodone just to sleep before. I also bleed unusually heavy for three and a half days. Short but severe.

In order to help with both the pain and PMDD I will be receiving an arm implant birth control in a little while. Nexplanon was chosen because it’s not an estrogen birth control. This causes less side effects and, most importantly, doesn’t increase chances of blood clot issues. I have a much higher chance of getting a blood clot cause I can’t walk or exercise. I would not be getting birth control if it further increased the risk.

Overall I’m so excited at the prospect of being in less pain and discomfort. With all the challenges in my life, the removal of one is absolutely priceless. I’m so grateful for the option and opportunity. This is my choice and I’m happy to make it.